The Pursuit of a Lover
Someone told me recently that I need to share my gift and be more in service to others. They were pretty accurate because it's true that I get the most of this healing energy that I am equipped with. Of course the very nature of being a holistic energy practitioner is to be in service to others but my shyness sometimes prevents me from sharing it with others. I am not very aggressive when it comes to this work. I don't doubt my abilities but I do wonder if I can handle the social aspect of it. Her words have been rolling within me and the only thing that comes up is this vision of me beckoning a lover.
I find it odd for me to be thinking about putting strength and courage into a lovers body, mind and spirit so that they may come knocking at my door instead of creating a newsletter for my business. I feel like I am on the verge of writing a romance novel. Right now, as I am typing, I have this vision of me typing a salacious novel instead of writing a very sensible business promoting post. Am I love deprived? Maybe.
Earlier I felt a rush of energy flow within me. My hands got hot and at first I went to put my hands on myself, but then I heard that voice. I decided that whatever I was intending for myself, I would intend for those around me, old friends, and even people I don't particularly care for as well. With my hot palms facing the atmosphere around me, I projected sweetness, the good kind of stickiness, intimacy, soft caresses, lingering smiles, long satisfying sighs, and silent twilight conversations into the worlds of those who are open to it. I called out names and saw visions of sweet souls who were my intended recipients. The energy flowed stronger and my hands started sweating. I did good. Dear reader this includes you. Open up and take it all in. There is more than enough to go around.
I have never pursued a lover quite like this. I love myself in all kinds of ways but this act of summoning a lover feels quite different. I have no clue what the end result will be, but this feeling is powerful. What am I bringing to myself? What page am I turning? This hot honey drenched love is a ride that is both thrilling and serene, slippery and gentle, dirty and healing, satisfying and everlasting. This is delicious and moan inducing and I am forgetting all about business. Maybe that's the point.
Blame this post on Richard Sherman, Old school full beard James Earl Jones, Erzulie Freda, and friends new and old.
4/4/2014 12:58:16 am
I really appreciate your blog post, sharing openly in that way, bravely! I connect with the energy of loving everyone, even the ones I find most challenging to, and with having an energy of sensuality & sexuality, sex being the creative force. As artists (musicians included) we have a very strong energy and it allows us to connect with the universe, so deeply! We are made of love and we all need each other to experience love & to give love - what we share we receive, as is said giving is receiving. I am grateful for you, Kiki Cinza. You are an example for all of the world. It makes sense to connect with the world via your longing for your lover. As I connect with my partner, and with my music, I connect with all of the world energetically! I'm taken to a place of knowing, of loving, of being; the truth is tangible, felt, experienced, that "we are all one" and as one of my favorite spiritual counselors says, "...love is ALL there is." Namaste Kiki Cinza. My eye sees yours. Goddess. Lightworker. Healer.
4/7/2014 04:40:23 pm
Beautiful words. I am glad you were able to connect to this post and see into it with such depth. :) Everlasting joy to you!
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