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KC: Why did you decide to participate in this project? Please explain.
C: I decided to participate in this project because I wanted to reach out through the prison of my self-imposed isolation and make a positive change. KC What were your goals or intentions for these sessions? C: My primary goal was to reach a deeper level of healing by internal pruning and gain a new perspective to the deeply rooted issues within me. KC: Have your goals or intentions changed? Why or how so? C: My goals haven't really changed. KC: If you could tell a stranger what happens in these sessions, how would you describe it? C: I would describe the sessions overall as compassionately gentle guided experiences into the multifaceted layers of the self. KC: At any point have you wanted to discontinue working together? If so, what kept you committed? If not, why? C: I felt some trepidation at times but I continued on since fear oftentimes tends to point the way to the greatest growth. KC: What have been some of your greatest challenges in the months we have been working together? C: Some of my greatest challenges were connecting with my heart center and matters having to do with the nature of identity. KC: What technique, homework assignment, or energy session stands out to you the most? C: The thing that stands out to me the most was the assignment of constructing the altars devoted to the god and the goddess. KC: What changes have you made since we have been working together that you can attribute to this project? C: The changes that I've made was to reforge my commitment to myself, and becoming more mindful and aware of how I choose to nourish myself. KC: What impact has this experience had on the way you think about yourself and the world around you? C: The impact of the sessions came about in subtly imperceptible ways. I definitely have a more positive and compassionate outlook towards myself and my ability to make desired changes in my world. KC: What do you feel the value of this project is? C: I honestly feel that the value of the sessions are priceless. KC: How do you feel about the 6 month time limit? C: I feel that the 6 month time limit went quickly like a dream and I do wish it went a little bit longer. KC: How will you move forward when our time together has come to an end? C: I will continue making inroads on my health and fitness journey by potentially taking a nutrition course, continue going to yoga class (I'm considering joining the Y), improve on my mediation practice, seek out and indulge my creative passions and getting out to enjoy my surroundings including reaching out to others. KC: Who would you recommend this experience to? C: I'd recommend this experience to anyone willing to plumb the depths of their being to discover the truth of who they are.
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Cue Boyz II Men and open your psychic ears to hear me hit those whiny constipated notes. While you are at it, pass me some cosmic tissue. It has been six months and I have reached the end of the first installation of this awesome, life-changing project. As the participants responses come in, you will be able to read what they got from it (hear from Pearl and Ginger). But now, I am going to share what I learned from them, in order of appearance.
The first Person I had a session with was Pearl. When we first started, she was afraid of everything it seemed. I felt my job was to help her release the fear. As things would come up, I found that I was able to explain what was happening in her life in a way that not only gave her security, but me as well. You see she wasn't special in having fear. I have had plenty of fears, especially in the realm of psychic phenomena. I have been afraid to see, hear, sense anything that others couldn't, but in my responsibility to her, I felt myself quickly overcoming these fears. Working with her also forced me to acknowledge all of my fears, big and small. I actually get excited when I find a hidden fear now. I feel a sense of triumph, because I know if I can see it, I can address it. Pearl also taught me about the unconditional bounds a mother's love can truly have. She is willing to learn whatever she needs to help her children and it is awesome to see. It influenced me to do the same for this group. Ginger, Oh Ginger. Ginger helped me grow a even deeper appreciation for my mother and life. She came to me feeling like there was nothing left. She felt old. Every time she expressed it, I would then go look at my mother who was outside working, getting ready to go dancing, or applying for volunteer positions, and realized that there is no such thing as retirement (and that was a good thing). With Ginger, I realized that until I am ready to transition from this experience called life, I am going to enjoy it and work to have as much fun as I can. Before working with her, I was more excited about the relief of death. Yes, I was working, but I didn't want to. Yes I was trying to build a business, but I didn't see its worth. Had I been diagnosed, I would have been considered depressed. As I encouraged her, I encouraged myself. Over the six months, I have watched her come back to life. Her voice has strengthened and she helped me hear the beauty of mine. Our dearly departed Raccoon will always be special to me because she showed me the strength I had in my commitment to this project. She left probably about 2 months in. The first day I was disappointed because I really wanted everyone to do it together and I saw so much potential in her. She taught me to let go and trust the process, not just for the project, but for everything. After she left, the energy of the group changed for the greater and I found myself becoming even more creative and exploratory. Her presence and disappearance forced me to look at my work ethic differently, with a kinder eye. Before starting, I questioned if I could maintain these weekly sessions, and when she left I knew could do it. I was built for it. He's the Whiz and he lives in OZ! If you know anything about the symbolism of the Emerald city, you will know that it represented the heart center. Without a doubt, the Whiz lived up to his hometown. He taught me about love and relationships in a way I never expected. He was exploring a polyamorous lifestyle and in order for me to help him, I had to tap into that perspective without judgment or my own issues. As I did this I started to inadvertently explore aspects about myself and my past relationships. For a long time, I felt guilty about having a big heart and loving the way I did. If someone accused me of "still" loving someone, I immediately felt wrong or weak. I felt this way so much that I had tortured myself into trying to change, but without success. Working with him, help me to release the guilt and then love myself even more. I realized that there wouldn't be a way that I could do this work if I was selfish with love. I also learned that anyone who would try to make me feel guilty for being myself, needs to learn how to love. Hey, wasn't Dorothy polyamorous too? Last, but definitely not least, is Coco. She has been a gift to us all in every mysterious way you could imagine. Every time I wondered if I was getting through to her or felt helpless, something miraculous would happen. Feminine energy is described as the mystery, the void and most people are afraid of it. Coco taught me to find comfort in it. She exemplified feminine energy in a such a pure way that I was constantly pushed out of my comfort zone of intellect, ration, and logic. She taught me not to be afraid of the unexpected. I welcome it with open arms now. She taught me that what we fear most about ourselves is often the most powerful attribute we have. Early on, I called her the angel of our group and in these 6 months I have seen a transformation in her that I truly can't put into words. Every time I think about it, I find my head swaying in quiet shock and a mistiness cloaking my eyes. Pearl, Ginger, Whiz, Raccoon, and Coco, you have been an amazing group of souls. I don't know what happens next, but I have a sense of wonder and excitement from this experience that I have never had before. Something BIG happened in this work we did! There is no need to hope, plan, or expect anything because we are cloaked in a delicious richness that just wants to be experienced. Experience, love, and trust your path. I love you all! KC: Why did you decide to participate in this project? Please explain.
G: I really needed a change in my life as traditional therapy was only taking me so far. I felt working with Kiki would not only give me something new and interesting but also more spiritual which is what I tend to lean towards. KC: What were your goals or intentions for these sessions? G: Honestly I had no goals or intentions. I just was open to spontaneous healing in whatever way it was going to go I was going to flow with it. KC: Have your goals or intentions changed? Why or how so? G: Well I still have no goals. My intentions however yes I am moving away from the whole psychiatric modality. I have delved deeper into the spiritual work. I intend to move geographically. KC: If you could tell a stranger what happens in these sessions, how would you describe it? G: In some sessions we talk and exchange ideas. In some sessions I was given specific set of tools how to work through your traumatic issues from my past which I'm extremely grateful for. I appreciated the guided meditations. KC: At any point have you wanted to discontinue working together? If so, what kept you committed? If not, why? G: Yes there was a point where I wanted to quit. I felt that nothing was going to change I wasn't going to change. Well I stayed committed because the other choice was just not an option, which was doing absolutely nothing... And then Kiki was just so kind and nurturing and it's TOUGHLOVE kind of way. I don't know if that explains it clearly. KC: Ha! Yes, it does. KC: What have been some of your greatest challenges in the months we have been working together? G: Consistency and discipline. Staying on track with the exercises in the homework. KC: What technique, homework assignment, or energy session stands out to you the most? G: Oh that's easy when we went back to a childhood traumatic instance and we brought in allies to protect me. Ninjas to be specific. KC: What changes have you made since we have been working together that you can attribute to this project? G: I've left the psychiatric community. I'm almost completely weaned off psychiatric medications. I completed an online course that I wanted to take. I also quit my volunteer position of six years having realized that I now deserve to be paid for my work. KC: What impact has this experience had on the way you think about yourself and the world around you? G: Well I'm a tough nut to crack. So what I'm about to say has nothing to do with Kiki or the work. I still do not think very highly of myself. And the world is still a very grim and scary place for me. KC: Even when this ends, what we created will continue to do its work. Trust in the mystery and you will be where you want to be. KC: What do you feel the value of this project is? G: The opportunity it brings to people for healing who might not otherwise have been able to have this experience. The financial and or family constraints and so forth. The value is priceless! I received tools and techniques I didn't get in a lifetime of traditional therapy! That says a lot. Pretty much says it all. Powerful. KC: How do you feel about the 6 month time limit? G: I think the pace was perfect for me. The six-month timeframe perfect. KC: How will you move forward when our time together has come to an end? G: Sincerely making every effort to continue using the tools that Kiki has given me. I've already shared with someone else one technique that we did with the ninjas and going back to past trauma and healing it. KC: Who would you recommend this experience to? G: I guess I would recommend this to someone who's really ready to do the work on themselves and to be fully accountable. And when I say fully accountable I mean completely honest with themselves. I would recommend this to other people like myself Who have been traumatized, been through drug addiction ,and survived serious abuse (mental and physical). KC: Why did you decide to participate in this project? Please explain.
After years of living with the "bipolar" label, drugs, doctors, the hospital, I was looking for a new way to manage my condition - I was also questioning if this condition was even real... Maybe I am not "crazy", maybe it is something else entirely. KC: What were your goals or intentions for these sessions? To learn the most I could from you, new ways to look at myself and my experiences, and to develop new tools so I wasn't so afraid anymore. KC: Have your goals or intentions changed? Why or how so? P: Yes - I don't feel "sick" anymore. I feel blessed and gifted. Instead of looking for tools to help me cope, I am looking for tools to help me develop and grow into my gifts. KC: If you could tell a stranger what happens in these sessions, how would you describe it? P: I would describe it as both challenging and eye-opening. You will get out of the sessions what you are willing to put into it. Kiki is both insightful and bold, not afraid to put a person outside of themselves and to look at things from another angle. KC: At any point have you wanted to discontinue working together? If so, what kept you committed? If not, why? P: No. KC: What have been some of your greatest challenges in the months we have been working together? P: Letting go of fear- becoming comfortable with myself and having faith in my own gifts. KC: What technique, homework assignment, or energy session stands out to you the most? P: Our last session - creating an energy ball. It was astounding to me that I was actually able to do it. I think it was the turning point for me- I believe in myself and my abilities and am much more excited by it than I am afraid anymore. KC: What changes have you made since we have been working together that you can attribute to this project? P: Recognizing when the emotions I am feeling aren't mine, hearing my own cues, and grounding when needed or stepping back from a situation to regain my control of my emotions...Using tools (stones, visualization, etc) to gain perspective and insight. KC: What impact has this experience had on the way you think about yourself and the world around you? P: It opened my eyes to the wonder that truly does exist under the surface of things. I feel more centered within myself and trusting of my own intuition. KC: What do you feel the value of this project is? P: It pushes people past their own perceptions of themselves, past fear and labels to become more authentic to themselves. KC: How do you feel about the 6 month time limit? P: It's good - the baby bird must leave the nest eventually. KC: How will you move forward when our time together has come to an end? P: Signing up for classes here and continuing practices of visualization and grounding. KC: Who would you recommend this experience to? P: Anyone who is looking to gain greater insight into themselves. I think it is excellent. |
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