When I give a Reiki session or a counseling session I am working within my clients energetic field. In simple terms, I am reading them. In addition to that, as an Empath, I can also feel what that person is feeling. It is pretty unavoidable and since it helps me help the person I am working with, I just go with it. Things tend to get funny when I am working with someone who is able to do similar work. Not too many people like to be read, but I find the hardest clients to work with are fellow Intuitives AKA Psychics AKA Readers. I know it takes a lot for me to open up to another Reader so I am not shocked when I feel resistance from them. I remember when I was scheduled for a reading from a Psychic that prior to the reading (which was over the phone) I could feel her trying to get into my energy field. I have such a strong shield around me that I had to go into a slight meditation to let her in.
I often get a few Intuitives on Free Reiki Fridays and it is always a little weird. The first reason is that they know the value of the work I am doing more than those who do not spend a lot of time in the spiritual world, so why do they want something free? And if it is out of curiosity, isn't this the point that they should engage their intuition to determine if they should work with me or not? Don't get me wrong, I have done the same thing. Recently I saw a woman offering free 3 minute readings and I inquired about it. I guess free really means no commitment or risk. We don't expect much with free. It was like I wanted to test her out and maybe they are doing the same thing...and it is all good, until I have to read them.
Reading a Psychic isn't much different from reading someone else because Psychics are just people who have tapped into their inherent gifts. At the end of the day and if they eat well, they still drop loads in the toilet like everyone else. The main difference is that I find the information that I receive to be more down to earth. With most clients, I find myself saying that they should work on meditation or connect with their ancestors, but with psychics the messages are more like "clean up your house" or "go to the club and chill" or "your baby is becoming more independent and you should be ready for that". I don't choose the messages and the tone always seems to be very catered to the individual. Keep in mind that I am giving a Reiki session, so these messages come as I am in different parts of their body/auric field. After the energy has stopped flowing I write down what I got and then send it to them in a message. This is where it always gets funny (not in a ha ha way).
My ego has been tested every time I have sent out the messages. First of all, it isn't easy to give out these messages because they are so personal. Secondly, as clear as it was when I got the message, I begin to question if I should send it. Before I doubt myself, I just start typing. I start at the beginning of my list and keep going until everyone has received their message. Within a few hours the replies start rolling in. Most of them are thank yous with a few questions, but the psychics always act like they forgot they signed up for Free Reiki Friday. I get, "Is this message for me?" or "What is this?" This could really screw with my confidence if I hadn't already received so much confirmation from the other people on the list. So that is the point where I have to quiet my ego that wants to boast and say, "You know good and well that message was for you." I take a deep breath, come from the heart, and simply say a "yes" and maybe a "thank you". I know had it been the other way around, I would be offering a similar reply because of that weird feeling that someone was all up in my business.
Being read can be an invasive procedure no matter how loving the reader is. It can be downright scary because the reality is that you are asking for someone to help you with something that you have a hard time acknowledging or healing on your own. The other side is that when you are reading people on a regular basis, it can give you a false sense of security and even superiority. You become the giver, the provider, and no longer the receiver. You can feel on top of it all, but how quickly you can fall when another reader can see that your house is a hot mess.
Even though I was testing out that psychic recently, I am glad that I was at least willing to be open. We all need help sometimes and I think it is the strongest of people who really know how to receive it with grace, trust, and openness. I am working on being one of those people. In saying all of that I do have to say there is also a wonderfully amazing side to working with highly intuitive clients. I'll explore more of that in the next journal.