One of my favorite quotes comes from the late, great Johnnie Cochran, "If it doesn't fit, you must acquit." I find these words of pure wisdom applicable to most life situations. Today I hear them echoing through the halls of my dull headache, gently bouncing off the tender spots. This condition I have is probably psychosomatic but I am okay with that. It is my body's way of telling me that I should indeed "acquit". But what is it that I should acquit? Well I'll tell you...
I am a happily single woman but I didn't realize it until very recently, like really recently. Before this revelation, although unaware, I was attached to the idea of partnership and that I needed it or that it was something that I should think I need. Are you following? Recently I went on an awesome date. I had a great time and when I got home I couldn't stop talking. The interesting part was that the subject of this incessant post-date blabber was myself. I can't believe that I am typing this but I fell in even more love with myself. I liked how I carried myself. I liked my smile. I like everything about me, really. Even now I am smiling with love and admiration for sweet, wild, interesting me. I know, I know, this is all so sweet you can barely stand it. Well imagine the position I am in. I hear, "I love you." even in my sleepy hazes before I have brushed my teeth in the morning. It doesn't stop. *blushes*
So what is it that I should acquit? Well we know I can't quit me. I got that Brokeback mountain unquittable kind of love. Today I realized that I can let go of the false need for partnership. It's pointless and only accentuates a false sense of loneliness. I feel so much gratitude for my life and my decisions that neediness and loneliness just don't fit. My headache today allowed me to be with myself. I didn't want to be around anyone and through it all, the love seemed to grow more. I felt myself surrendering more deeply than before to the love within. I hear that great quote and I know that I can close the case on loneliness vs Kiki. There was never a case to begin with.
What have you been holding onto? What/Who are you falsely accusing of doing you wrong? Hire Johnnie and let him set it right for you. I have him on retainer. Once you are able to see your greatness and feel gratitude for all that you are, you will find a lot of the thoughts you have been holding (knowingly or unknowingly) just don't fit. I tried on the glove of loneliness and couldn't get it past my fingertips. If that ain't proof...