Bruno again? What can I say? He speaks to me...and this morning I woke up with this song playing in my head and its been playing all day. I have never been into those Bonnie and Clyde, ride or die, or me & you against the world types of songs. I always thought it was all a bit unnecessary. When I first heard the beginning of Grenade, I skipped it. Immediately I discarded it as one of those songs that I had absolutely no interest in. I saw it as Bruno's way to get young women to scream and pass out at his concerts and teenagers a song to cry to after their first heartbreak. Today I am feeling a little different about it. I have no choice since it is on replay on my internal jukebox.
I see this big explosion and I wonder if the pain is even felt. I see this person in complete surrender to the moment and I watch in admiration. They stare their torturer in the eye, feel everything, and ride each pang like a wave until it takes them under. See this song is a song that they (the lover) would never get to sing if they went all the way through with it, this undying love. Is it because he hasn't had the chance or is this an conditional song about unconditional love? If it is love, limitless love that he is giving her, then how did it run out? There he is at her doorstep unloading all of his "love" and I see her picking it up to place it in the trash right after she removes his breaks so he can't stop this love giving. She then proceeds to beat him up at the door until he is black and blue. Next she gets the gasoline, a match, and burns him alive. This is a sad song, but love is energy and energy can't be destroyed. Right?
Of course I am right. I learned that in public school science class. Therefore, death doesn't end a life and love is limitless. You don't stop existing and furthermore you can't be held. With each death is a new transformation and a new adventure. Does this mean it is time to take a bullet? No, silly. We experience small deaths everyday. As we make new choices in life, forge new paths for ourselves, dream new dreams, a little piece of us dies to create new life within.
When I heard this song this morning, it was after a dream I had. In the dream I was talking about how I didn't want to be trapped into being a singular way. Here is this guy singularly directed to the object of his affection saying he would die for her and I thought what if he really did. What if he went all the way? And if he represents unconditional love that is inherent within us, what if she was bold enough to go all the way? Now we have a Romeo & Juliet scenario but it is still intriguing. What if you were willing to give it all up to yourself? What if you were willing to have a death within? What would we transform into? Well we wouldn't be trapped in singularity.
What does the song of unconditional love, death, and transformation sound like? I am listening for it.